Making sure I make the least amount of money possible every day.. and simultaneously constantly asking me for money is insane.
Got my car back from my ex and I just have no desire to try anymore.
Your rent is not my responsibility. I don’t want to be stressed out with no usable content for sale anymore. My life doesn’t need to be this hard. I shouldn’t have to fight you to get a 30 second video of my hands on you. If your dick doesn’t work you need to be nicer to me, not meaner. Fuck off.
Wtf are you making me go through and for what reason? I can’t spoil you if you’re making sure Im so miserable I don’t want to take pics or go live and making sure I have no b/g content to sell doesn’t even make any sense.
Stop stressing me out. I don’t want life with you anymore. You’re not worth the misery and being broke for. Screaming at me that I make enough to cover your rent and mine isn’t attractive. All while I’m constantly scrambling to make enough with never enough help from you.
Why don’t you pay my rent? Huh???
You don’t even help me take pics, edit any, comment on my IG pics or promote me. You’re literally the worst person to do this with, my worst fan and worst enemy.
Fuck you and fuck off
I hate that I don’t even recognize myself anymore sometimes. I wish I didn’t have feelings 😅
Sometimes, I look at what I wrote and I think to myself… I never wanted to end up in a situation where I voiced anything like this out.
I learn a lot from Instagram.
Someone made a reel
“They’re not playing hard to get. You’re playing hard to get rid of.”
And it took me some time to sit on that. I think they have a point.
Keep moving forward. Chin up. Cheer up. Stay strong (mentally and physically). There are plenty of people that want to film with you and do stuff around the house to make your life easier.
Going live soon for 15 minutes.
Scene
Cindy moon is seething at home…. alone…. Staring at the castle walls… She hasn’t seen anyone or uttered out a word out in WEEKS…. She suddenly opens her mouth to talk to no one in particular…
@cindymoon7
#writing #fiction #socialmedia
Writing
Princess Garfield: Cindy, it’s time to move on.
Cindy Moon: …
Princess Garfield: You’ve been hanging on to this for over a month now.
Cindy Moon: …
Mai Hero: … BUT WHY WOULD HE SAY THAT
#writing #cindymoon
Me ignoring 1000+ other men for a few hours to see you should never at any point have you tell me to lose weight when you are over 400 pounds.
I took HOURS out of my day to make you home made nutrient rich soup as a friend that was concerned for your health and even offered to exercise with you and YOU told ME I should lose weight not for health purposes but to be more visually attractive. TWICE.
Are you out of ur fucking mind
Do I look like I don’t have enough on my mind?
Now I gotta think about how there’s fat guys out there 3-4 times my size thinking I need to lose weight???
Ur such an asshole. I can’t forgive someone who’s going to pretend they didn’t say it either. TWICE.
I don’t want to have dinner with you any more if you’re gonna tell me to lose weight. And if you don’t believe in me and the comic that I’m writing then why should I give you the time of day? How am I supposed to be attracted to someone who thinks the outside of me is more important than what’s inside of me?
“All the weight looks good on you”
“You look like a real woman, you know. Curves”
“Just drop 10-15 pounds, do some skin care, change your clothes, _______, ______”
“The girls I know do this stuff no big deal” (shows me their pics and disrespectfully low prices)
“Ah, I hate when shows starring women bring in to the story line ( not consensual events) …it ends up defining them and then that’s their whole story
“ I don’t think you understand her (the female Asian comic character) you should maybe write a fan fiction instead of a comic.”
???
Ugh. shut up.
I don’t have time to unpack all this. Or teach you to think like a healthy, respectful human being. Don’t take me more off track than I already am. I wanna relax.
(Don’t mind me I’m just getting stuff off my mind. This is my process)
I’m gonna tidy up and stream in a bit to say hello
(Pics of elevated more normal and healthy conversations I prefer in my eyesight and mind.)
(I wouldn’t be as mad if he actually apologized but he apologized…. and also said he didn’t remember saying it when we both know he said it twice. I didn’t deserve that and now it’s echoing constantly in my head to the point where I don’t want to eat. That’s not fair to me.)
There’s no point in dating someone who won’t even make real b/g content with me, make me feel beautiful or help me with anything important.
And I also don’t want any sugar daddies that think telling me to lose weight is a good idea.
I don’t want to be fondled for dinners or hear weird misogynistic stuff when I’m almost 20 years younger than you. I shouldn’t have to teach you basic decency at your age.
I’d rather be alone another year than hear anyone’s voice echoing to me that I need to lose weight or that I should write a fanfiction instead of my comic when you haven’t even seen anything.
If you’re not going to be good for me then stay out of the way.
You can mute me, I’m just sassing the meanie heads in stream. 🤣
Watch me take off my long sleeve shirt and jeans to uncover my matching underwear today! I am wearing some everyday cotton Calvin Klein panties and a nice comfy black bra. I flash you several times, showing you my bare nipples. Even eventually flashing my butt and perfect little asshole and just purely exposing the more private parts of me for your eyes only. I even pull the panties all the way down so you can catch sight of my perfectly shaved tight little pussy. Unlock now and catch every second of me you can get, papi. 😳
#calvinklein #home #ceasefire
Cindy: don’t give them free attention if they’re not nice to u and making purchases
Mai: but I’m so angry!
Cindy: I know. They were meanie heads. They still want ur attention even if it’s not nice. So don’t give it to them if they can’t be nice and gentle with u
Mai: aaah
Cindy: just focus on the gentlemen
Mai: FINE
If you’ve made purchases and haven’t talked to me like an ASSHOLE, send me a rose 🌹 for a free selfie or 2. Or more if you’ve made bigger purchases. The GENTLEMEN will be getting some free LOVING attention.
THANKS for not being an ASSHOLE.
