1. I don’t give a Fuck. 2. No, of course I didn’t mention ..
1. I don’t give a Fuck. 2. No, of course I didn’t mention my Website at the event. 😑🤣
2021-12-05 19:42:04 +0000 UTC View Post
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Name things that are green. 🧩🎄🍀🔫
Name things that are green. 🧩🎄🍀🔫
2021-12-05 19:11:48 +0000 UTC View Post
Chad took away my scissors so I have to wear the Lacasa and ..
Chad took away my scissors so I have to wear the Lacasa and 0x Genesis Miami wristband until he gets back. I found one of the christmas shirts and did 3 loads of laundry today. Had We Bare Bears on tv. It was a good day. <3
2021-12-05 03:13:05 +0000 UTC View PostAs a ch ld I used to save up my coins to buy a bag of skittl..
As a ch ld I used to save up my coins to buy a bag of skittles. Then I'd bury them all in the dirt because I saw the commercials with the taste of the rainbow and raining skittles and everything and thought thats how rainbows grew. I thought i was a bad kid for the longest time because I couldnt grow rainbows from my skittles.
2021-12-05 01:48:23 +0000 UTC View PostToday, I am tackling the Room of Doom in search of my Christ..
Today, I am tackling the Room of Doom in search of my Christmas/Xmas sweaters and decorations.
2021-12-05 01:02:21 +0000 UTC View PostJust at home and working on improving my handwriting. 🍑 I L..
Just at home and working on improving my handwriting. 🍑 I LOVE YOU. 🥰
2021-12-04 20:49:19 +0000 UTC View PostI like to make myself laugh. 😋😁😂
I like to make myself laugh. 😋😁😂
2021-12-04 20:40:26 +0000 UTC View Post🍎 🍑 🍏 🍌 🍍 🫐 I guess what I was really angry at was how far..
🍎 🍑 🍏 🍌 🍍 🫐 I guess what I was really angry at was how far behind I felt. Or in
2021-12-04 10:09:45 +0000 UTC View PostSend me an apple emoji if I can pretend ur my boyfriend for ..
Send me an apple emoji if I can pretend ur my boyfriend for today. I wa t to feel pretty and important. 🇯🇵🇨🇺🇵🇷🇰🇵🇳🇬🇨🇴🇻🇪🇲🇽🇨🇺🇺🇬🇨🇳🇵🇪🐣🐓🍎🍏📱
2021-12-04 08:42:03 +0000 UTC View PostChilling to an artist ive never heard before called Fleetwoo..
Chilling to an artist ive never heard before called Fleetwood mac. Her voice feels like heaven to my ears. Gonna run a couple more miles in a bit. I love you. <3 Thank you for ur patience. Letting me express myself in my own home and feel like I am seen and heard makes my world seem less scary. Thank you.
2021-12-04 08:23:03 +0000 UTC View PostDon't talk to me like ur my boyfriend if all you got me for ..
Don't talk to me like ur my boyfriend if all you got me for my birthday was a fucking 20$ publix gift card with Thanksgiving cartoons on it.
2021-12-04 06:46:28 +0000 UTC View Postsmoking some green, running a mile or two with some weighted..
smoking some green, running a mile or two with some weighted blankets on my back and then coming back to stream. Thanks for existing and letting me exist and express myself during my time of need. I appreciate and value you. <3
2021-12-04 05:28:17 +0000 UTC View PostIn the village of the misty faze tonight. Looking or someone..
In the village of the misty faze tonight. Looking or someone to hold me tonight and maybe take me to tech place tomorrow. Something wrong with phone.
2021-12-04 04:17:39 +0000 UTC View PostLooking to hang out for Art Basel. ⭐️
Looking to hang out for Art Basel. ⭐️
2021-12-04 04:07:54 +0000 UTC View PostMy mushrooms grew so well, I’m so happy. Mushroom queendom..
My mushrooms grew so well, I’m so happy. Mushroom queendom -> mycology posts 😋
2021-12-03 16:30:33 +0000 UTC View PostThe LaCasa event was ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️. I’m guessing there was at l..
The LaCasa event was ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️. I’m guessing there was at least 100 billionaires in the building. It felt super fancy and it was lovely in so many ways. I’ll share more when I get the chance. I need to process more. I feel bad that some invitations went wasted. Definite loss if you were on the list/were given a private invite and didn’t go. I hope I get invited to more events like the ones I’ve been going to in the future. I truly loved my experience. There were a handful of panels and I would have liked to have seen more. I fell asleep at a few of them. I learned a lot more than I expected and the event kinda pushed me further than I thought it would. Felt weird to see that diversity was mentioned because it just feels weird thst we even need thst as a panel. I liked how forward the women speaking and moderating were as well. They exuded a confidence I’ve never seen from any women in my family. (For the new people here, I had an off brand upbringing and it felt like I was raised by hamsters. The mean crazy kind we create by f🇯🇵rcing them into solitary confinement with our stupid god complexes and ignorance fueled by pet shops. UGH, TANGENT. BACK. THE LADIES AT THE ELITE TECH CRYPTO GAMING PHILANTHROPY EVENT THINGY AND THEIR GREATNESS Especially when they have clearly and firmly (in my eyes, ears and opinion anyway) insisted in investment in American communities. I had to leave one of the panels because the group of successful and fortunate people were clearly kinda giving the run around on the question and it felt like they were just going to keep investing overseas instead of giving Americans jobs. (Did you know that there are 13 districts in miami that are in serious need of a blessing of opportunities?) I definitely listened to some people talk who were more clearly interested in a return on investment. It kind of rubbed me the wrong way, tbh. I believe it’s important to invest in Americans and it’s always been an option to hire overseas and Americans at the same time. The people who prioritized a return on investment kinda scared me, too. I’m gonna put those people on the bottom of my list. I wouldn’t want to promise anything I can’t bring to fruition. I am only one Chibi goddess. Mmmm… I also remember every speaker that mentioned Asians and which ones that didn’t. I’m not really gay 8 don’t think, but I would have loved to hear mentions of lgbtq communities and more inclusion people with disabilities, too. I really liked the speakers that mentioned philanthropy and backed up their talk with the money and actions. I liked that there were a lot of female moderators and seeing black, Hispanic, mixed speakers was a happy bonus. The ceo of Cameo, Steven Galanis one of the ones who vocalized plans to expand to Asia. He is also the duke graduate and the one I remembered because he used his platform to include a mention of George Floyd. He’s probably still hurting, too. It’s nice to see people who have heart and show it, too. I love that. I thanked him for mentioning him. If footage is available after the event, I’ll be sure to rewatch it. Gloria Estefan just signed on to cameo and they are just at the beginning of growth for the company. He said they have over 50,000 American celebrities on their database and thst this is just the beginning. 😋 🇺🇸 Only a brave few made the effort to talk to me, a few I had to grow the balls to put myself in front of them and they told me to send it to their linked in. Some people leafed through my book of random notes and took pictures. Some put my phone number on their phone and asked to have coffee and sit down and talk with me. 😋⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
2021-12-03 11:26:54 +0000 UTC View PostI don’t even chase gang gang when he runs away with my panti..
I don’t even chase gang gang when he runs away with my panties, so I am most definitely not chasing you. 😂
2021-12-03 03:03:56 +0000 UTC View Post
I was mostly ignored at the event but a few people were brav..
I was mostly ignored at the event but a few people were brave enough to play with me. 😂 🇯🇵🇰🇷🇹🇼🇨🇺🇮🇪🇵🇭🇰🇵🇹🇭🇭🇰🇦🇺🤖💛⭐️🇨🇺🇨🇺🇨🇴🇺🇬🇳🇬🇲🇲🇦🇴🇲🇬🇪🇹⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️🦄 I’d like to think my Marina’s Maid Cafe/e-cafe franchise that includes an online arcade, art gallery, music center, movie center, village people center, (etc) that takes all crypto is a good idea.
2021-12-03 01:13:56 +0000 UTC View Post⭐️Limited edition HoeKage challenge⭐️ 😉🔭🪐🛸🚀🚀🚀🚀🇺🇸🇯🇵🇨🇺🇨🇳💛🇨🇴🇮🇳🇦..
⭐️Limited edition HoeKage challenge⭐️ 😉🔭🪐🛸🚀🚀🚀🚀🇺🇸🇯🇵🇨🇺🇨🇳💛🇨🇴🇮🇳🇦🇺 ONLY the first 4 players to reach 1000 followers get ⭐️1 hour ACTIVATION ⭐️of おいろけの術 (Oiroke no Jutsu)/ SEXY JUTSU on their 🇯🇵nly F A N S ) ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🥺🥺🥺🐥✨🇨🇳🥺🥡🐥💛🇯🇵🇯🇵🇯🇵 ⭐️READY PLAYER 69⭐️ OKAY, GO! 👾👾👾👾👻👻👻👻🤖🤖🤖🤖
2021-12-03 00:44:54 +0000 UTC View PostThe invitation only event felt like a little party for all t..
The invitation only event felt like a little party for all the tech billionaires and company managers. I had a fantastic time and I was lucky enough to get some time with people more successful and bigger than me. My favorite panels yesterday included the sports player and the guy from Duke University that mentioned George Floyd. I’ll share more later!
2021-12-02 23:48:36 +0000 UTC View PostYes, I know where rock bottom is. Now will someone kindly di..
Yes, I know where rock bottom is. Now will someone kindly direct me to Bikini Bottom.
2021-12-02 23:01:04 +0000 UTC View PostGood morning from LaCasa event! This special Art Basel event..
Good morning from LaCasa event! This special Art Basel event has been great. We saw Pitbull earlier today and the mayor again today.
2021-12-01 16:28:42 +0000 UTC View Post⭐️Journal entry ⭐️ I really liked my first day of Art Basel..
⭐️Journal entry ⭐️ I really liked my first day of Art Basel. Yesterday was exciting cuz I got to talk for more than a minute and I left the house. 💛 I got to see a new place called The Citadel, enjoy a quality tech event and listen people bigger and more successful than I. The mayors had good energy and I would love to learn more about them and hear about what they’ve been up to. It’s nice to have great leaders who are genuine, caring and look out for the people and community.😁 There was also a splendid array of food at la Casa created by all the restaurants at The Citadel. 😍 The art galleries were lovely and I barely had to run away. The NFT art was quite lovely, too! It was sparkly and it moved. ✨ I loved every detail they had at the event. I networked and was able to kind of for real talk out loud to about 2 people before I started stuttering. 🤣 I’m gonna try harder at the event today. 💛 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I don’t know if it’s the autism, the off brand Asian upbringing, my shyness, the cultures I grew up in or a combination of it all… but I have a lot of trouble talking in real life. I didn’t know how weird I was until I went out and a lot of people told me I was. 😅 And it was a lot of people, I guess cuz…. It’s usually a classroom of 25 white puppies, 5 black/brown puppies and then tiny me. 🐶 So mathematically I’m going to be insane. Don’t mind me. 🥰 The stuff I was taking in eventually got to me even in adulthood. I know everything that happened to me was not my fault. I did not deserve any of it. I am allowed to move on from it and I’m supposed to. I am bigger. I turtled myself into the house or terrible choices/options thst I had at the time. It’s not thst I don’t want to fit in, but that I just don’t and the same people trying to give me advice are the ones causing me serious mental health issues. I usually forget thst I’m Asian until someone mentions it. Then I gotta remember I’m not in my world, I’m just in theirs. 🙄❤️🩹😭✨ I like to think I’m just another human in a mecha body. 🤣 (Tangents again, let me figure this shit out ): back to the important processing part, I didn’t know how much other people’s parents talked to them since I never had that until I went to American school and watched American tv. It’s completely different from what my parents were watching and feeding us. I wasn’t even allowed to consider dating people outside of my race or love. I’m not allowed to talk. It was like insanely bad and I don’t really recommend that route, 0 stars. 🤣 People only know what they’re taught. I can’t relate to most people so I lose myself before I can even talk. I think I would be stronger ajt talking if my parents talked to me or talked to me like I was a person. It always comes back to my family. I don’t like saying this but my family isn’t like other people’s families. I think I got weird in my head because there’s always signs everywhere that family is everything and family is good… but when I went to my family it just… broke me more? I just didn’t understand the vicious mental abuse cycle that was going on from it. I like thst I see it now so I can stop thinking about my family every time I see the word family. Hopefully. It’s weird and idk how to explain it. I want a mom that reads stories to me. I want someone to say good morning or good night to me. I wanted someone to hug me and tell me everything’s going to be okay. Or that they loved me. Or ask me about my day. Anything at all. I’ve been nonexistent for so long. I deserve love, too. I think it would be okay for me to let go of my family and try to imagine my own. I would love to get my shit together and foster kids if I don’t have this job or figure out some way to manage everything. I can’t even manage my own bathroom or hear another news piece about China without holding tears back about what I’ve seen online and in real life. 🤣😅😅😅 I’m gonna try to stand up to my family more this month and talk to more people in real life. I’m gonna try to talk to 3 people tomorrow at the casa event and THEN I’ll run away. I made it to 2.5 today then stuttering. Lol. I really liked the people I talked to yesterday and I’m really happy and proud of myself. Keep going! (Hopefully soon I can m..t a tech guy to help me with things. I hate getting hit on so I’ve had to ghost punch like 5 dudes. (*play song Cross me by Ed Sheeran and Chance the Rapper) I literally just can’t talk to you anymore if you try. I completely shut the fuck down when I see the text goes from business to something else. Stop hitting on me or trying to pull some weird shit on me when you’re lucky I reply. Fuck. Oh am still typing??? Fuck. Go brush ur teeth and run. )
2021-12-01 11:23:53 +0000 UTC View PostI lasted 5 minutes on Instagram today. 🤣 I felt better after..
I lasted 5 minutes on Instagram today. 🤣 I felt better after telling them off so they don’t do it again to other girls. There’s a weird toxic… entitlement a lot of ugly people carry that makes them make comments no one cared to hear. One of my favorite conversations with @maicocoa is when we listening to each other bitch about weirdos being rude. I also told the very sad lady off. I definitely don’t need to read messages from some insecure stranger telling me I’m ugly and nasty and that she felt so bad for me and yaddy yaddy yah. 😂🙄( tell ur lover I said hi, hunny.) aaaand then I blocked her. Gotta get stronger with that part. I know Instagram is super rigged so I don’t know if all my comments are the same you guys see. It’s interesting. I wouldn’t mind giving up Instagram to be honest. I’m not on social media anymore and I’m pretty sure I’m doing better. I remember being addicted to Facebook. I mean I’m still addicted to my phone but I have a better self esteem than before. Also, I’ve gotten a lot sassier after lurking on the internet for years and studying incredible gay, women and sassy characters clapping back. I like me.
2021-12-01 07:53:16 +0000 UTC View PostMute video of me and Snowball included. It’s a weird place t..
Mute video of me and Snowball included. It’s a weird place to be online. 😅 I got to m..t the mayor today and some super important people. I had a fun time for work today. Looking forward to more networking and tech industry events. ❤️🥰
2021-12-01 07:10:56 +0000 UTC View PostChad was there for me the other day for my most recent break..
Chad was there for me the other day for my most recent breakdown/breakthrough. I guess I finally got to say out loud what was going on in my heart that I didn’t realize. “It’s just… really hard to be any part Chinese right now.” 😆 (it really is🤣) *cries for 2 hours after more ptsd goes off* After I came to that understanding, a lot of things started connecting and I realized a little bit of why I was so…. Angry and frustrated all the time? I don’t think it’s my fault but I still have to be strong enough to deal with it all. Other Asian girls or marginalized people understand and when they talk about the same issues or express it somehow, it helps me a lot. I don’t feel as alone or as ugly/bad when my brothers and sisters on the internet pop up and remind me I’m not. I like when they share their emotions, feelings and art. It makes me feel like it’s okay to share mine. I feel very lucky and am thankful. I love you!
2021-12-01 06:28:36 +0000 UTC View Post⭐️✨Imagine✨⭐️ that you are a lifetime member of shiddy North..
⭐️✨Imagine✨⭐️ that you are a lifetime member of shiddy North Korea club. 🇰🇵 😳🎖🤭😭 … Who would you rather worship as an magical entity that will have power over ur whole entire family forever❓ 🤔 🏡
2021-12-01 04:42:11 +0000 UTC View Post
