So… update… I gave my brother 50 bucks for his birthday and 4K out to strangers on the internet $200-600 each… only for all of the strangers I thought were my friends to look at me with resentment and ask for more. I can’t handle all of this by myself. It’s too much. I need people who can follow directions and not complain or make me break down with their responses. I really wish I was different and hope to change soon. I can’t handle myself by myself anymore. No ones looking out for me and I can’t take it anymore. 😂
I kind of wish I just gave it to my brother or saved it and didn’t talk to people. Leave me alone. I owe 20k in taxes and can’t cover rent. It’s like the tournaments I should have never thrown (the ones that cost me loads of money and yet I’m still being accused of making profit off of. 🥴🥴🥴🥴🥴🥴🥴🥴🥴🥴🥴🥴🥴🥴🥴) . I’m exhausted. I’m done. I keep making awful decisions because I over care and over love and I’m tired of myself and other people. Fuck off. I’m the bad guy. I don’t want to be good anymore. See you, soon. 😂
Anyways. I need to earn $1000 cuz I’m late on rent. If you’re one of the good players, you will be getting a link still. Don’t fucking talk to me. I’ll be streaming later to ground me and smoking. I can’t handle being here anymore… again.
Fuck you. Pay me. 😂
….??? 😆😂
None of the players I have right now are uplifting the the way I need to be or want to be. You could keep quiet and go down the path of abundance, but you decided to show me bullshit. 😑
Men say the darndest things sometimes, huh? 😅
Anyways, I’m done. I don’t want to be treated or seen the way I now know how I’m seen. I want more. I deserve more. 😴💤😪🥱😇
I’m not talking to you in private unless it’s going to help me or my causes. Some of y’all are idiots and can’t appreciate me the way I need to be. It’s that bad……. I took time to meditate and realized.. I’m good. I don’t need this. It does real damage to me and I’m closing off again. Access to me is a privilege. The game is changing again out of necessity. This month I only want to chat with women, trans women and bi or gay men. None of y’all are really my friends, huh? 😂
If I give you a gate key to the homie folder and you say stuff like
“we NEED each other.”
“You can’t do this without me.”
*sends violent dick pic or video in response*
“The problem is that there needs to be more explicit content in the folder.” (Has done nothing for me or even spent a dollar on me or gotten me any followers.)
“Stop talking about black people or chill with the protesting.”
“ you should pay me to take your sexy photos.” (While you look like fucking big Ed.) OF COURSE A BITCH WILL GET MAD. 🤣
I’m also a little fucked up rn now cuz I gave someone 60% for a minute as a GIFT, onlyfans takes 20% AND I have to pay taxes (I’m behind on rent and I did that cuz I was helping more folk who were fired during pandemic) so it’s COSTING me money to extend myself and it’s just not worth it if I get this upset. It’s so fucking offensive when I also told them they could sell pics on the side and keep 100%. I’m just…. Floored.
I’m streaming tonight and taking a vow of violence… I mean silence. Don’t talk to me. Don’t text me. I need space to think about my next step. I thought you saw me for what I’m really worth and I’m sad to see that you don’t. Some of you really don’t deserve me. I want to give my time and energy to people who are going to be as generous and high tier as I want to be. I’m worth that. I’ll be back a little more organized. If you’re any of my players, don’t contact me. I’m trying to pretend you didn’t say those things to me and I need to go do more shrugs.
Me being generous while trying to fight the Room of Doom: I’ll let you keep 50 percent if you sell my stuff on eBay and I don’t have to worry about anything.
Chad: …. 100%!!!!
Me:…..
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*throws 1 silver stripper heel I’ve never worn at him*
WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS
WHY ARE YOU ALL LIKE THIS
🤣😭👡
😍💋Warning💋🥰🌹
You’re going to get turned on if you buy this. 🥵💦
✨You’ll be addicted to me forever✨
You’ll need every second you can get of me and I’ll be right here as your dream girl. 🥰😋💛💦⭐️✨🌈🌙🍌
✨ Worship me ✨😌🌙💛
Sweet dreams if you’re sleepy.
Chad took me to ikea for Swedish meatballs and I was really happy that I asked him and he took me. I looked at the nice kitchens there to see if I liked any of them. I liked the one with the green cabinets. I had a really good time and was looking forward to the cafeteria part. I find ikea like a small Experience I enjoy. I had salmon with salad and a butterscotch chocolate coconut cake or something. I felt like a normal girl doing normal things and I didn’t buy much. Saving towards a renovation then new furniture. 😋🏡🧹
(Internet world🥰🌸💖🌈🌠💫🌌🪐)
We’re making progress and I’m really proud of us for putting in the effort. I only want to think about the people on my team and talk to the people on my team. I realized I gotta limit messages coming at me. I love realizing that God didn’t make me to be the complaint department for myself. I want to be treated kindly, with love and respect consistently so that’s I don’t become negative or corrupted. 😋 FRIENDS ONLY. 🌸💖 I deserve to be talked to with love, kindness I like to imagine weirdoes as tiny, deranged, zombie, hamtaro characters and that makes me feel way better. 😅 to everyone else, Thanks for like existing and not being an asshole. Glad you exist. I love you! 😂
Gonna play more chess online now. 😋
The game has many names, changes all the time and is the most fun game of all games.
Sometimes, it’s called espace force
Sometimes, it’s called oh, let’s see how much money we can make today.
Sometimes, it’s oh, let’s just hang out long enough to see who fucks it up and maybe one day I’ll see if I can play
Sometimes, it’s called, oh wow so this is what’s it likes to be an Asian girl.
I like/need Chad around I guess cuz he says all the shiddy things I don’t want to hear like, okay, stop crying on stream. I’ll try to stream again today. Xoxo.
Decided to take a peek at what my players are doing and it looks like a whole lot of nothing. 😂
Ten men square dance
The game
Ready player 69
Espace invaders
If you
blast super explicit stuff of me and only explicit stuff of me with no positive effect for me
and I don’t have a social media account through you,
Or you blast super explicit stuff of me and you only got me 30 followers, or
you haven’t made any money for us, then you of course I’m going to be fucking mad.
Do better. Im not your bitch. Im your goddess.🙄
Anyways, I’m opening the game to more people. Take the name you want, post 7 pics, a profile pic, some sort of description you think would be most attractive (you can always change things and try other things if they don’t work out.) Grow 2 social media accounts to 100 followers. I don’t want to have any small talk. Expecting talk from me is setting me up for failure and I will collapse. I can’t even talk to my parents. Don’t get an attitude with me or have any sort of entitlement with me. I’ll try to create mental capacity to talk to the top 10 performing players but it’s unrealistic when I don’t ever want to talk to anyone ever again. 🤣
Leave me alone.
Send a peach if you want to play/ think you can get me 100 followers on 2 forms of social media.
Dont hit on me if you’re trying to make money. I’ll stop paying attention to you and disconnect. It will break me to see you taking the game for granted and I won’t play with you anymore.
✨New world alliance ✨
✨Coplympics ✨
✨The Best Wall of China✨
✨ Freedom Fest✨
✨ The Salem Bitch Trials ✨
✨The Waifu defense force✨
✨Salvation navy ✨
✨ Espace Force ✨
✨The ministry of Offense ✨
✨North whorea✨
✨Attila The Hunny✨
✨Mulan Rouge✨
✨Jane Honda✨
